Gamblin' Ramblin$

I kan haz braclet 2?

Seems to me that Obama wanted to get into a johnson measuring contest.

"I have a bracelet too."

How about "Mine's bigger than yours." ?

I'm not into politics. But when someone pops off with something so monumentally stupid, I have to say something.

I'm a registered Dem, and catch hell for it. For good reason I'm afraid.

Change is good?

Anyone of the two or three people who occasionally visit this blog may have noticed the changes I've made. No mention of WOW in the title.

When I started this blog, it was to discuss chip collecting and acquisitions with the odd rant tossed in for some....flavor.

Well, recently I looked back through the archives and was actually taken back in how the direction veered away from my original idea. Granted, chip collecting targets a very small niche in the grand scheme of things, but it's what I enjoy. I also was unhappy how I took personal info and just threw it out for anyone to see. Pretty childish actually but I tend to be quick to show emotions and used this blog to let on what I was thinking without actually speaking to the person(s) I may have been targetting the post(s) to.

I said before I have a lot of work to do..some things big, others small.

Therefore, I will be going back through the archives once again. This time I will be removing selected entries. Some of these were hurtful and mean. I am sorry for them. I can't erase the past, but I can certainly remove a post.

And...I will get back to the business of chip collecting. Can't buy anything right now but I can keep things updated.

One man's mess is another man's paradise

Emma came to visit, actually she's been over a few times. We always have fun shopping, planting flowers, eating, watching movies.

But the best time of all was during her first visit. We opened up the chip collection in an effort for her to pick out some of her favorite chips to have framed. I wanted something to hang on the wall as they are quite bare.

We made the biggest mess...

...and I loved it!

She made her selections which are now proudly displayed in the living room. I spend all my time there since there is no bedroom furniture or dining room furniture.

I left the mess alone for several weeks, only recently picking it up to vacuum. Perhaps we'll do it again for Conor when he comes over revisits, or maybe even Trevor, if he ever comes over.

On the other hand.

I miss my kids and I miss Mary Beth. As much as I love having the young ones over...it can't ever compare to seeing them every day.

I beat myself up every day for letting things get so out of hand. Being by myself is not enjoyable.

I feel cold and so very...

very...

alone.

If you fail to water a plant...

...it dies.

Pretty simple, right?

I am far from a perfect person, manager, father, and husband...very far. Yet, I don't think I'm a total F-up.

I have issues...a few? Many? Too many? Hell...I don't know.

But what I do know, is that eventually I will wise up, become enlightened, realize, grow up...whatever...and will begin to address and resolve my issues.

All at once? No. Methodically, one at a time.

It's already started. I have removed a major source of strife in my relationships...that is World of Warcraft. I stated to my guild when I left...

"I have become a statistic, one of the fools that is ridiculed on the forums and talked about in articles."

The game is off my laptop. I no longer have access to my characters.

I feel this was a significant event to come to grips with my obsessive compulsive behavior (diagnosed), and was a bit of a shock to most I know. Others, dismissed it as no big deal.

No water? Dead plant.

This was an addiction, not lethal as are some, but destructive. Will something else take its place? That's up to me. If my addiction were to working out or cleaning house...I highly doubt there would have ever been a problem with my relationships...I guess I picked the wrong thing.

Are a few words of encouragement too much to ask for? Or even acknowledgement?

A watered plant will flourish and bloom.

I have a lot of work to do. I have more issues to contend with.

All I need is a drink now and then.